A Willing Spirit

I do not profess to be perfect at interpreting Scripture. I will just share with you what God shares with me that I feel like He wants me to pass on. My Thursday class is studying Psalm 51 this week. Wow! I am working on memorizing Psalm 51:10-13 - "Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me away from Thy presence, and do not take Thy Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of Thy salvation, and sustain me with a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors Thy ways, and sinners will be converted to Thee." All of these verses are awesome, but one little phrase just jumped out at me that I had never really given much thought. "Sustain me with a willing spirit." I am in a very trying, difficult time right now. I feel like I am in the battle of my life. Circumstantially, it doesn't really matter what the outcome is. What matters is how I walk through this. Am I going to do it in my own strength and in my way? This phrase says sustain me....yep, that is what I need right now. I need God to sustain me. The definition of sustain is to keep from giving way, as under trial or affliction. I cannot hold myself up through this. Then it says the way that He does that is by our having a willing spirit. Hmmmm - again, I go to my dictionary. Willing means cheerfully consenting. Then it hit me (I am kinda slow). God sustains me when I am totally and completely yielded to Him. So if I am worrying or trying to fix the problem myself, I shouldn't question why it seems as if God is not doing His part and holding me up. We say that we want peace, comfort, and strength during difficult times, yet we are holding on tightly to control of the situation. We don't give it up to Him. We don't trust Him with the situation. And why do we not trust Him? Because we don't know Him. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can trust Doug.,,,because I know him. I have spent alot of time getting to know him. I know his heart; I know he loves me; I know I can trust him. It is the same thing with God. If we spend time with Him in His Word, in prayer, and a moment by moment walk, we will get to know Him. He will reveal His heart; we will know He loves us; we will know we can trust Him. Thank you, Father, that you will sustain me as I yield to You and trust You completely.